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how I see it – Tůrí

Celebrate life 

Ever gone to a hospital,to see a loved one,  then see him/her there struggle to do the most basic of things, like putting food in their mouth and even moving a muscle. How weak they are laying there and you start having flashbacks of how healthy and energetic they were just before they started ailing, how you start wondering what kind of a thing did you possibly do wrong to God, to have this person be in such a state. How useless you feel because you are neither a doctor nor do you have the ability to breathe life into this person. Then later during the week /month, unfortunately, just as you think that he/she is getting better,  you get that call from a close friend / relative telling you the most dreaded news ‘he is no more’ that’s where you start thinking that you should have spent more time with the late loved one, you should have at least made a few calls time to time just to know what’s up on his / her side of life… That’s when you’ll start appreciating life more. So start  seeing the good rather than the bad in people , celebrate the people in your life, live like your not sure if tomorrow will indeed come to pass, smile more, meet new people, go to new places, experience it all, show the closest to you their worth… You only live once, but if lived right… Once is enough. 

I can’t adult

The 1st sip, down my unlucky throat…that burning sensation all the way down. I can literally hear my stomach cursing me for introducing such kind of ‘liquid fire’ . For a moment i feel awake, then it takes form in my body, I feel more alive, the bulb in the room is less dimmer, so this is how 42.8% of ‘poison’ takes effect…I smile to myself, feeling my body less powerful. Who let me adult, I indeed can’t adult 😀

Not so urban 

Then i arrive at my countryside, located deep inside the Aberdare ranges. This was the kind of places one would have to board a train to the main town, then a bus to the town center, then a modified pickup known as ‘face you face me’ where there were sits at the opposite sides of the pickup and as the name suggests, people would sit at positions facing each other. The sad part about this mode of transport was that, if one of the passengers happened to have ubnormal luggage like live chicken, large amounts of raw fish or even a live goat, it would be put just beside you, at the same place you were sitted. So it was rather unfortunate if one was heading to a wedding then found himself in this ordeal, because he/she would end up having some kind of stench overthrowing the cheap perfum that you had worn , so people used to carry perfumes around like handkerchiefs just in case. Another thing was the dusty roads Headed to my country side were so bad that the ‘face you face me’s’ used to throw us around while they were racing to drop us at our destinations. Sometimes I used to have deep sympathy for the school goers who had to board these vehicles while heading to school in the morning, I tell you the way one is thrown around while the car is racing down the dusty  road, is enough to have you forget all that you have read that previous night for an exam….and long term usage of those vehicles may have one even going insane. 

I finally arrive at my grand mothers place, tired and dusty. She must have heared the vehicle stopping past the house and racing away afterwards because she came towards the gate running having the idea that she had a visitor. Then she saw me, trust me I’ve seen alot of people smile, but hers was real. Even with her notable number of scarce teeth she would still show her joy in one of the most selling smiles I’ve seen so far. She came then hugged me, she hugged me so tight that I could read that part of that hug was anger of me not coming to see her more often, but it was still filled with love. 

She then leads me to the living room and immediately prepares a meal of roasted chicken and rice to kill my appetite….what can i say , the lady knows me 😀 . I showed her my prowess in that field as i had taken part in several eating competitions and the kind of hunger that i was going through in campus did not allow me to play with food….most of all chicken. After giving her my story’s of my experience in school using my crooked mother-tongue  dialect which made be believe that we were not on the same page for almost half the time I was talking, but the fact that she was laughing and nodding her head while i was narrating was enough proof of communication. 

Then just as i was getting done eating, my cousin, Mungai, came in and greeted me half heartedly as half of his mind was on the chicken. He asked me to escort him to watch an Arsenal game at a nearby bar and I hurriedly accepted being the loyalist I was of Arsenal. But the glutton of a man had to eat first and you could see the way he was tearing those bones, it was like he had  some knowledge of chicken anatomy because he cleared the meat in those bones like if it was some kind of surgery, and finally we headed to the bar. Mungai told me he had ‘forgotten’ his cash at home but he would appreciate if I would buy him 2 beers and 3 glasses of Mùràtínâ (a traditional brew for the Kikuyu community) I knew the guy was taking advantage me expecting I had cash due to the fact I was from town, not knowing I had 20oksh in my pocket that I ordered a jug of mùràtínâ with, promising to buy him beer after the match had ended. When the brew was served, Mungai was so excited you would think he had won some lottery….he served his first glass and gulped it down his throat like it was tap water. 

The game finally started, Arsenal Vs Manchester United, the screen we were viewing from was a JCV model ( China copy of the original JVC) and the TV was so small that I was having a hard time tracing the ball in the screen. Another thing was that the TV was on mute and the radio was the one giving commentary, so as we watched the game the commentary was from a local radio station ( Inóóró FM ) that was giving vernacular commentary of the match since most of the people there couldn’t understand English. The problem was that, the radio would sometimes announce a goal while in the Tv no goal had been scored.

The game ended at a draw 0-0 and as I was seeping my brew, I realized Mungai had finnished the whole jug and was now looking at me suggesting for the beer I had promised, knowing I didn’t have money I had to act fast…..so I faked beeing drunk by talking aimlessly and staggering as we were heading back home….Mungai seemed very disapponted…but don’t blame me, a mans gotta do what a mans gotta do 😀

(The picture is an artwork showing an artists impression of a rural township in Kenya. Follow him @jrsketchbook on instagram) 

Grant us peace

Have you ever sat and took interest in reality? I mean something other than what others have posted on instagram or which is the latest brand of shoes or movie in the market?
So this is what is happening… in some parts of the world, there is war, whattever name you decide to give it, either genocide or violence,  people are dying . But the saddest part is that the young are also dying….the kids, the ones who haven’t lived yet, the innocent ones who still haven’t who don’t even know what their dreams are,But just because it happened that they were unlucky enough to be born in these war stricken parts of the world , their childhood gets stolen from them just like that…..I myself have some of my best moments as a child,  from me learning how to ride a bike to watching cartoons the whole day. For kids like Omran Dagneesh, a 5 year old who was unfortunate enough to find himself in a battle field and got injuries on his face, what will they have as their childhood memories??? Is it the loud gun shots and bombs clouding the air every night making them sleepless or its the bloodshed all around them as a kid? I myself at I’m at my youth but I still have a phobia for  blood,something about blood just gives me chills, what about a 5 year old? Something should be done, and immediately by everyone. And by that, i don’t mean useless hash tags on twitter that cause rage for some days only to be overtaken by another hashtag concerning celebrity gossip. People are dying…..wars are not a fun thing. People lose their loved ones. The ones they cherish most, the sons lose their mothers while the daughters lose their fathers. People get displaced and have no where to call home, and wherever they settle eventually….they are never at peace because it just doesn’t feel right…because its just not Home.I mean, you end up not having your silly classmates at that new place or those fun neighbours u used to have before. Life changes completely. I myself have never experienced war but I’ve been in the sitiation of a riot in school at 11pm in the night during the my first year first semester and its not a funny ordeal…what started as a peacefull night ended up in chaos. U can imagine being in bed then lights suddenly go off then you hear people running outside some screaming and confusion hits you…but then you hear gun shots……the gun shots i tell you ……made my mind race, my heart beat and body  numb as i really tried to find a tune of sanity. I then jump out of bed then wore two different shoes…a red and black converse (i didn’t even notice it) then ran for safety. That…one may think was a cowardly act….but trust me nothing makes the past a better place to visit than the prospect of imminent death. At that moment so many things hit your head, your family and friends, things you havent accomplished yet and things that you have indeed accomplished  and you cant let them go, and to me thats enough excuse to run. But that was a riot setting, what of a war? That kid in Syria, Somalia or South Sudan, do they really deserve it? Having their whole life being thrown a way just like that, and their only mistake was being born in a family which stays in the war stricken areas, the same way i didn’t have a say in the family I was to be born in, is the same way they didn’t and is the same way others get born being princes and princesses in royalties.  Did these ‘warkids’  wrong God by accepting to be born? If someone would be able to see the outside world that he/she is going to be born into before being born….for their case…would they have decided not to come out of their mothers womb just to save themselves the misery and pain of war? I personally believe that something should be done to bring long lasting peace, this is the little thing I can do at least, write about it to bring concern to others. But what if everyone played a role, and the world leaders played their significant role? I think the World would be a better place as peace shall prevail and everyone shall be having that sense of serenity in them.
(the photo is an artwork of Omran Dagneesh, a 5 year old boy from Syria who sustained injuries when an airstrike hit their neighbourhood)

Watch me grow👦👨

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At times i visualize my life…long before i had a memory lane deep enough to be excavated. When i was a kid….how was I? Was i really that much of a trouble or too good to be true…did my mother always look at me and see a true version of love and affection every time she held me…even at those times that i cried….mostly at those times in fact. did everyone who watched me grow from a toddler, see a future in me…a concurer.  If i could have a  meeting with my 2 year old self (having some sense obviously) would he be glad of what he’ll be at one point of his life…will he see that the damned sleepless nights, the lonely Cry’s and the heart full laughs are worth it? Will he have the anxiety of growing old  and meet people….make and loose friends.Will having him chew food be a very big step to experiencing the tasty cosines that the world has to offer? Will the burning sensation of alcohol ( vodka actually ) passing through his throat as an adult feel better than him lactating from his mother as a child? Will the feeling of being drunk or high worth living for?  Will he see that life is that adventurous and the places he craves to visit are truly worth going to?…will the long train rides and the sleepy road trips be worth his time?…will having hot climate  at home means its really not worth it going to the cold places and experience the goosebumps on his skin? Will the joy of accomplishment not grow into pride and the brokenness of failure push him to giving up?…Are all these memories worth him having….but if u ask me. Ill tell him its worth it. Every single one of them.

Foodie chronicles :-P

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‘You’re the light, you’re the night
You’re the color of my blood’

Some of the deepest lines in a song. But… why think of a person while it plays while you can dedicate it to sth which is really a ‘light’ and does biologically  make your blood.  food.
When i get hold of a good meal, kwanza the chapatis,  damn…Is like the breasts of an angel,taking a form of baked floor…laying gently on my mouth as i take the 1st bite, then the 2nd and the 3rd till i loose count. Then the soup… Rich flavoured soup playing in my tongue in a seductive deluxe. Then a chunk of chicken so fine and elegant, French kissing my mouth like a steamy love scene in a soap opera. now the two dishes  in my mouth breaking down and reassembling, the saliva forming , my stomach filled with anticipation for me to swallow and me longing for another bite even before i’m done with the 1st one, like a cheating spouse.
Now you sit there with your hunger n imagine me feed my craving, perfect foodporn. Bon appetit 😉

Tale of an urchin 👦

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The day i saw a motorcade…my eyes lay still my mouth agape, The cars too beautiful in black going at a daring speed, The Fascinated standing by the roadside leaving everything to get a glimpse…i was staring at a dream i thought to myself. Barefoot i stood under the scorching sun, my torn (not yeezus) shirt following the rhyme of the wind whistling a happy tune, and there i thought, ‘that will be me someday’ …the day i saw a motorcade.

( Tale of a street urchin )

(^_^)

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That thing you with your face…when you open your mouth wide and let out those teeth out,  those cheeks being filled up with joy having the shallow dimples on their side,  how your eyes glow with love and kindness, how you look at the world like the fairy tale it is rather than a gamble for happiness, your smile just breathes new life in Me.

Philis,  My dear sister

‘Wanna be’ chiq

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You…. You too cool for the slow life. U see every one else as a clown … Walking down the road in your Brazilian horse tail weave – your fake Kardashian attitude -your too much of a tan in your face and that one heck of an obvious accent.  You cant even pronounce your too good of a nyawira name right….. When in Primary school, u shrub it as ‘ nyawila ‘ now it’s ‘sweet bae nyawira ‘ (not omitting the tweng)  your nails are dog like… Or too much of vampirish, one would say u hunt for food by pouncing on rats. N please quit it with that ‘ I only do KFC talk ‘ when in high school u were a mad chapo madondo ( African bread and beans) fan…. So am guessing the doctor gave you a strictly KFC medical therapy or your tongue developed a madondo allergy that makes the beans taste like snake soup, slithering through your mouth. You have a team of niggers chasing you… Snap back Type of niggers actually , I so wish you would know that you can’t have a snap back and a brain in the same head. I dunno what makes you think that all of us are on your case dreaming about your forced out curves when you pass by. So even when I come down to your level and decide to say hi to you at the hallway, you decide to hug me tight enough to get the passers by attention,  giggling just to sell it …. Some of us have lives.  Don’t mistake kindness for weakness – plus I don’t do plastic,  I’d rather pet a Barbie doll … I actually pity you and your legs, you because it’s you – and your legs because of how much flexing they have to do to sustain your bills .  As I said…. Stay on your fast lane and AL be on my slow one… But take note… My slow train can knock out your fast nduthi (motorcycle)on any given Day.

(this is a fictional piece dedicated to the socialites-dont take it too personally 😀 )

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